Musica Universalis · Philosophy · The Honest Reckoning

Of Monsters and Men

What does it mean to be human · light, matter, art & becoming the electron

You are made of the same particles as stars, and yet you know it. That knowing is the whole problem, and the whole gift. Every philosopher who ever lived was trying to answer one question wrapped in a hundred different costumes: what are we, and what should we do with it? The answer keeps dividing, like matter itself, into smaller and stranger units, until you arrive at the electron, which doesn't know where it is until you look.

Section I · The Grand Argument

What Does It Mean to Be Human? Seven Voices Argue

Ask eight philosophers what a human being is and you get eight different animals. Below they speak directly, not summarized, but in voice, arguing over the same fire, the way philosophers always have. Their disagreement is not a problem to be resolved. It is the thing itself.

On the Question: What Is a Human Being?

Democritus · 460–370 BCE · Greek Atomist

"Everything is atoms and void. You, your love, your grief, your ambition, all arrangements of tiny indivisible particles moving through empty space. There is nothing else. There is no ghost in the machine because there is no machine, only the machine. The soul is made of round, smooth, fiery atoms. Consciousness is the motion of those atoms. When the motion stops, you stop. This is not a tragedy. This is clarity."

Fragments · preserved in Diogenes Laërtius

John Locke · 1632–1704 · English Empiricist & Humanist

"You arrive in the world as a blank slate, tabula rasa, and experience writes you. Every idea you have, every conviction, every preference came in through the senses. There is no innate knowledge, no pre-installed soul. You are the sum of what has happened to you, and the reason you applied to it. This is liberating, not diminishing. It means you can be changed, and it means society is responsible for what it writes on its children. A bad society produces bad humans not through wickedness but through inscription."

An Essay Concerning Human Understanding · 1689

Friedrich Nietzsche · 1844–1900 · German Philosopher

"Locke's blank slate! How comforting, how English. You are not blank, you are a battlefield. Every human being is a tension between the animal that wants to herd and the individual that wants to soar. The herd values safety, equality, comfort. The creator values danger, hierarchy, fire. I do not ask what a human being is, I ask what a human being could become. The Übermensch is not a master race, that is the most catastrophic misreading in intellectual history. The Übermensch is the one who creates their own values rather than inheriting them, who says yes to life so completely they would choose to live it exactly the same, eternally. Amor fati. Love your fate. Even the monster in yourself."

Thus Spoke Zarathustra · 1883 / Beyond Good and Evil · 1886

Jean-Paul Sartre · 1905–1980 · French Existentialist

"Nietzsche still believed in the Übermensch, a destination. I say there is no destination. Existence precedes essence. You are not born with a nature, a purpose, a meaning, you are thrown into existence first, and then you make yourself. This is the vertigo of freedom: you cannot escape it by pretending God has a plan, or evolution has a direction, or society has a script. Every moment is a choice and every choice is a definition. You are condemned to be free. The anguish is not a symptom. The anguish is the truth. Bad faith is choosing to pretend otherwise, playing the role of waiter, student, wife, rebel, as if you were not choosing it moment by moment."

Being and Nothingness · 1943 / Existentialism Is a Humanism · 1945

Albert Camus · 1913–1960 · French-Algerian Absurdist

"Sartre is right that there is no meaning written into the world, but wrong about the anguish. He makes freedom into a burden, an obligation, a philosophical emergency. I say: the universe is silent, and that silence is neither hostile nor indifferent. It simply is. The absurd is the collision between your need for meaning and the world's silence. You cannot resolve that collision, you can only face it. Sisyphus pushes the boulder and it rolls back every time, and I ask you to imagine Sisyphus happy. Not despite the futility, because of it. The struggle itself is enough. The present moment, full of sunlight and sea and the smell of bread and the sound of someone you love, that is not a consolation prize. That is the whole prize."

The Myth of Sisyphus · 1942 / The Stranger · 1942

Simone de Beauvoir · 1908–1986 · French Existentialist Feminist

"All of you are arguing about the universal human. Let me point out: you are all men, and you have been describing men. One is not born a woman, one becomes one. The 'human condition' you discuss is always already a gendered condition, a classed condition, a raced condition. Sartre says we choose ourselves freely, but in what world? A world that has been constructed to constrain certain people's choices before they are born. Freedom is not purely internal. Freedom requires material conditions. The first step toward authentic human existence is looking honestly at who is actually free in the world as it is, not the world as your theory assumes."

The Second Sex · 1949 / The Ethics of Ambiguity · 1947

Peter Singer · b. 1946 · Australian Utilitarian Ethicist

"I want to challenge the entire premise. You are all still drawing a circle around humans and treating everything inside the circle as special. Why? Because we reason? Many humans don't, and we don't exclude them. Because we feel? Fish feel. Pigs feel. Their suffering is as real as yours. What makes you human is not a metaphysical category, it is a biological classification. And biological classifications do not generate ethical privilege. The question is not 'what does it mean to be human?' The question is 'what does it mean to be a being capable of suffering?' And the answer to that question extends far beyond your species. If you want to be truly human, start by acknowledging you are an animal among animals, and act accordingly."

Animal Liberation · 1975 / Practical Ethics · 1979

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The Synthesis · Musica Universalis

"You are all right and you are all incomplete. You are atoms that know they are atoms. You are freedom that is also constrained. You are animals who make symphonies. You are Sisyphus who, on the way back down the hill, stops to listen to a bird. The gap between what you are and what you dream of being, that gap is the Pythagorean comma of the human condition. It doesn't close. It was never supposed to close. The music lives in the gap."

Musica Universalis · Project Orpheus

Section II · The Physics of Illumination

Sunlight vs Artificial Light: What Actually Happens to Your Skin?

The sun sends you a full-spectrum electromagnetic broadcast, from ultraviolet through visible into infrared. Artificial light is a narrow, curated excerpt from that spectrum, and your body knows the difference down to the cellular level. The skin is not just a covering. It is an organ, a complex photochemical laboratory that has been having a relationship with solar radiation for 500 million years.

☀️ Sunlight · Full Spectrum

UVB (280–315 nm) · Vitamin D Synthesis Essential

UVB converts 7-dehydrocholesterol in the skin into previtamin D3, which becomes vitamin D3. Your skin can make ~10,000–20,000 IU in 20 minutes of full-body exposure. No food source comes close. Deficiency is linked to depression, cancer risk, immune dysfunction, bone loss, and MS. About 70% of the world's population is clinically deficient. You cannot get this from a window (glass blocks UVB).

UVA (315–400 nm) · Nitric Oxide Release Cardiovascular

UVA triggers nitric oxide release from skin stores, measurably lowering blood pressure within minutes. Richard Weller at University of Edinburgh found sunlight exposure reduces cardiovascular disease and stroke mortality more than it increases skin cancer risk. The net equation, in most populations, favors moderate sun exposure.

UVA · Melanin Production Protective

UVA stimulates existing melanin to darken and triggers new melanin synthesis (tanning). Melanin is a broadband UV absorber, it protects DNA by dissipating UV energy as heat before it can cause strand breaks. Darker skin has evolved for high-UV environments; lighter skin evolved to maximize vitamin D synthesis in low-UV northern latitudes.

UVA · DNA Damage Mutagenic

UVA penetrates deeper than UVB and generates reactive oxygen species that damage DNA indirectly. This is the primary driver of photoaging (wrinkles, age spots, loss of elasticity) and a contributor to melanoma. The dose makes the poison, chronic overexposure, especially with sunburn, is clearly carcinogenic.

Near-Infrared (700 nm–2500 nm) · Photobiomodulation Mitochondrial

NIR penetrates skin 5–10 cm and is absorbed by cytochrome c oxidase in mitochondria, directly increasing ATP production. This is now used clinically for wound healing, inflammation, and depression (transcranial NIR). Sunlight delivers this constantly and for free. Artificial indoor lighting delivers almost none.

Serotonin & Circadian Entrainment Psychiatric

Morning light exposure suppresses melatonin and triggers serotonin synthesis. This sets your circadian anchor, without it, the 24-hour clock drifts. Studies show SAD (seasonal affective disorder) responds to bright light therapy as well as SSRIs, and morning sunlight is a first-line treatment for most circadian rhythm disorders.

💡 Artificial Light · The Narrow Excerpt

No UVB · Zero Vitamin D Absent

Standard LED, fluorescent, and incandescent lights emit essentially no UVB. Working indoors all day under artificial light produces zero vitamin D regardless of how bright the office is. Supplementation or brief outdoor exposure is required. This is a modern civilizational condition, humans spent all of evolutionary history outdoors.

Blue Light (450–490 nm) · Alertness & Sleep Disruption Evening useMorning use

Blue light suppresses melatonin 5× more strongly than other wavelengths. Morning blue light from screens is neutral or helpful, it reinforces waking. Evening blue light (phones, laptops) after 9pm delays melatonin onset by 1–3 hours, fragmenting sleep architecture and pushing sleep later. The problem isn't the light, it's the timing.

Flicker & CRI · Invisible Stressors Neurological

Most fluorescent and cheap LED lights flicker at 100–120 Hz, below conscious perception but captured by peripheral retinal cells. Associated with headaches, eyestrain, and in photosensitive people, seizures. Color Rendering Index (CRI) measures how "full" the spectrum is; low-CRI lights (CRI <80) create a subtle perceptual flatness. Sunlight has a CRI of 100.

No Infrared · No Mitochondrial Stimulation Absent

LED lights are almost entirely cool-spectrum. They produce negligible NIR. You are, indoors under LEDs, deprived of the mitochondrial signal your cells evolved to receive. Red/NIR light therapy devices (660–850 nm) are now FDA-cleared medical devices that replicate this missing signal.

Skin Photodamage · Nearly None Protective

The main benefit of artificial light for skin: it doesn't age it. Photoaging (UV damage, collagen breakdown, pigment changes) is almost entirely a sun-exposure phenomenon. People who work indoors have dramatically less facial photoaging than outdoor workers at the same age. This is a genuine trade-off, not a clear win either way.

Social & Emotional Light Underrated

Firelight, candlelight, warm incandescent light: humans evolved around fire for 400,000 years. Warm, dim, flickering light in the evening is not a problem, it is ancestrally appropriate. The issue is cold blue-spectrum, high-intensity artificial light at night. Warm lighting in the evening is biologically benign and emotionally significant.

The Verdict on Light

The skin evolved in sunlight. It needs it, metabolizes it, uses it as information. Avoiding all sun in fear of skin cancer trades a probabilistic future risk for a certain present deprivation. The evidence-based position: 10–30 minutes of daily sun on large skin areas (before 10am or after 3pm in high-UV regions), sufficient for vitamin D synthesis, is strongly beneficial for most people. Chronic overexposure, especially burning, is carcinogenic. The solution is not avoidance. It is calibration.

Section III · The Act of Creation

What Does It Mean to Make Music, Create Art, to Speak?

Every human culture that has ever been found, every single one, has music, visual art, story, and language. Not as luxuries. Not as entertainment. As structural requirements of being human, woven into the nervous system at the deepest level. The question is not why humans make art. The question is: what is art for, and what happens neurologically and philosophically in the act of making it?

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Making Music

Organized time · communal breath

Music is the only art form that exists entirely in time, not space. When you make music, you are organizing time and sharing that organization with another nervous system. The listener's brain entrains to your rhythm, mirrors your emotion through motor and affective circuits, and experiences something that bypasses propositional language entirely. Music can communicate grief, ecstasy, tension, release without a single word because it speaks directly to the motor and limbic systems that predate verbal language by millions of years. Playing music releases dopamine, oxytocin, and endorphins simultaneously, the only known stimulus to do all three at once.

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Creating Visual Art

Making the invisible visible

Visual art is the act of exteriorizing an interior state so someone else can see it. What you feel, the color of grief, the geometry of longing, the texture of Tuesday morning, has no natural language. You have to invent the form. This is why the blank canvas is not a metaphor but a literal confrontation: the moment before you make a mark is the moment you are responsible for your own language. Children draw before they write. The hand that makes the mark is connected to a different knowledge than the hand that writes. Neurologically, making art activates proprioception, motor memory, visual cortex, and emotional processing all at once.

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Language & Speech

Building a bridge between isolated minds

Language is the most miraculous and most ordinary thing humans do. You take a feeling, which is chemical, somatic, private, ineffable, and convert it into a sequence of sounds. The sounds hit the eardrum of another person, travel as electrical impulses to their brain, and reconstruct, approximately, imperfectly, miraculously, something resembling your original experience. The gap that remains is where all poetry, all philosophy, all love letters, all arguments live. The gap is the interesting part. Wittgenstein: "Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent." But Wittgenstein was wrong that we must be silent, we must make art instead.

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Storytelling

The simulation machine

A story is a safe simulation of experience. The nervous system doesn't fully distinguish between a vividly imagined event and a real one, which is why fiction can produce genuine tears, real physiological fear, authentic moral insight. When you read about a character making a bad choice, your prefrontal cortex processes the consequences without any real-world cost. Stories let humans run counterfactuals, explore lives they couldn't live, practice empathy for people they'll never meet. Joseph Campbell's hero cycle is not a story template, it is a description of how human experience is actually structured: departure, trial, return, transformation.

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Dance & Movement

The body as instrument

Dance is what happens when music gets into the motor cortex and the body can't hold still. Entrainment, the synchronization of bodily rhythms to external beat, is the oldest social technology. Two people dancing together synchronize heart rates, breathing, and EEG patterns. Shared movement builds trust and social cohesion faster than any verbal negotiation. This is why militaries march, why rituals involve rhythmic chanting, why raves exist. Moving together in time is a biological bonding mechanism. The disco ball is an evolutionary adaptation.

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Writing as Thinking

Thought made visible to itself

Writing is not the transcription of pre-existing thought. Writing is what makes certain kinds of thought possible. You cannot have an idea of sufficient complexity in working memory alone, the paper extends your cognitive workspace. This is why keeping a journal changes you: it's not a record of your thoughts, it's the place where your thoughts become coherent enough to be your thoughts. Montaigne invented the essay as a form, essai means "attempt", because thinking required a medium that could hold the attempt without demanding a conclusion. This page is an essay in that sense.

Dario · The Voice That Screams It

"LET'S BUILD THE WORLD WITH ART! Not decorate it, build it. The cathedral is engineering. The fresco is science. The song is mathematics. The poem is philosophy. Every great advance in how humans understand themselves has come dressed as art first, Dante before Newton, Shakespeare before Freud, Coltrane before we had language for what free jazz was doing to time. Art is not the thing you do after you've solved the real problems. Art IS the solving. The artist is the scout. The rest follow."

Musica Universalis · The Signal

Section IV · From Atoma to Quark

The Atom That Kept Dividing

Democritus named it atomos, indivisible. The irreducible unit. The smallest thing. He was wrong, but magnificently so: he was right that reality has a granular structure, wrong only about where the grain ends. The grain kept going. And going. Until we reached something so strange that the word "particle" itself became a lie.

~460 BCE · Democritus

The Atom · Ἄτομος

Everything is made of indivisible particles (atoms) and empty space (void). Different properties of matter come from the shape and arrangement of atoms, hook-shaped atoms stick together; smooth round atoms flow. A brilliant intuition. The universe is granular, not continuous. Wrong only on "indivisible."

1803 · John Dalton

Chemical Atoms · The Elements

Atoms reenter science as the explanation for chemical combination. Each element has a characteristic atom. Compounds are fixed ratios of atoms. Atomic weight becomes measurable. The atom is real, even if we can't see it. Still indivisible.

1897 · J.J. Thomson

The Electron Discovered

Thomson fires cathode rays through electric fields and measures their charge-to-mass ratio. There is a particle inside the atom, far smaller, negatively charged. The atom divides. The electron is named. Thomson pictures the atom as a "plum pudding", electrons embedded in a diffuse positive charge.

1911 · Rutherford

The Nucleus · Empty Space

Alpha particles fired at gold foil mostly pass straight through, but a few bounce back violently. The positive charge is concentrated in a tiny, dense nucleus. The atom is 99.999...% empty space. If the nucleus were a marble, the atom would be a football stadium. You are mostly void. Everything solid is mostly void.

1932 · Chadwick

Protons and Neutrons

The nucleus contains protons (positive) and neutrons (neutral). Each has sub-units of charge. They are composite particles, made of smaller things. The "indivisible" unit keeps dividing.

1964 · Gell-Mann & Zweig

Quarks · The End of the Road?

Protons and neutrons are made of quarks, up, down, strange, charm, bottom, top. Quarks carry fractional charges (⅔, −⅓). They cannot be isolated: the force between quarks grows stronger as you pull them apart, so you can never pull a single quark out. This is called "confinement." You can never hold a quark alone. The fundamental particle refuses to be seen alone.

Present · Standard Model

17 Fundamental Particles · And We Still Don't Fully Know What They Are

The Standard Model is the most precisely tested theory in science, and nobody likes it. It is a list of 17 particles and their interactions, assembled over decades of experimental collision. It doesn't explain gravity. It doesn't explain dark matter. It doesn't explain why the constants have the values they have. It predicts, with extraordinary accuracy, while remaining philosophically unsatisfying. Physics gave us the answer but the answer doesn't feel like understanding.

? · The Photon

The Massless One · The Particle That Is Also Nothing

The photon has zero rest mass. It always travels at c. It is never at rest, to be at rest would be not to exist. The photon doesn't experience time: from the photon's "perspective" (using the term impossibly loosely), it is emitted and absorbed simultaneously. The photon is the universe's way of sending information from one place to another without occupying time. It is the closest thing in physics to pure relation, pure connection, with no substance of its own.

Section V · The Honest Uncertainty

Why Does Nobody Really Know What Particles Are?

This is one of the least discussed and most important facts about modern physics: we can predict particle behavior with extraordinary precision while having almost no philosophical understanding of what a particle is.

The electron, for example. We can calculate its magnetic moment to 12 decimal places and it matches experiment to 12 decimal places, the most accurate prediction in the history of science. We also cannot say where an electron is until we measure it. Before measurement, it has no definite position. It exists in a superposition of all its possible states, described by a probability wave (the wavefunction). When you look, the wave "collapses" to a definite position. But what is doing the collapsing? What is the wavefunction made of? Is it real, or just our knowledge? Nobody agrees.

10⁻¹⁵Size of electron

Meters. If it has a size at all, current experiments suggest it may be a mathematical point with zero spatial extent.

12Decimal places

Precision of electron g-factor prediction. The most precisely tested quantity in science.

∞Interpretations of QM

Copenhagen, Many-Worlds, Pilot Wave, Relational, QBism, Consistent Histories... no consensus after 100 years.

0Isolated quarks ever seen

Quark confinement means you can never pull a single quark out of a hadron. Fundamental matter refuses isolation.

95%Universe unexplained

Dark matter + dark energy make up ~95% of the universe. We don't know what they are. Our "complete" Standard Model covers 5%.

cPhoton speed, always

The photon always travels at c = 299,792,458 m/s, regardless of the motion of source or observer. Time stops at c.

The philosophical interpretations of quantum mechanics are not fringe debates. They are attempts to answer: what is real? Copenhagen says: the question is meaningless, only measurements are real. Many-Worlds says: every quantum event branches the universe into parallel versions, and all outcomes happen. Pilot Wave says: there is a real particle with a real position, guided by a real wave that we can't directly see. Each interpretation is mathematically identical, they all make the same predictions, but they describe completely different universes.

Democritus · Returning for a Moment

"I said atoms and void. Two thousand years later you split the atom and found, more void, and smaller atoms, and then smaller ones still. I am not embarrassed. I am astonished. I said the universe has a smallest unit. You found that the smallest unit doesn't have a definite position. That it is, in some sense, everywhere at once until you look. I said the soul is made of fire atoms. You found that fire is made of photons. I am satisfied. I was approximately correct. Approximately correct about the structure of everything. What is a human being? A temporary eddy of these uncertain particles, briefly aware of themselves."

Imagined return · Musica Universalis

Section VI · The Manifesto

Become the Electron

A guide to uncertainty · a manifesto for shifting · a permission slip for being unpredictable

The electron has no definite position until observed. It doesn't exist in one place, it exists as a probability cloud, a distribution of possibility, until someone asks where are you? and it commits. Before the observation: everything. After: one thing. But the one thing it chose is already becoming probability again. This is not a metaphor. This is what matter does.

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Wave-Particle Duality

The electron is a wave when you're not looking, spread out, interfering with itself, occupying multiple paths at once. It is a particle when you look, localized, definite, committed. The act of observation determines reality. You do this too. When no one is watching, you are more than one thing. When observed, you collapse into a role. The question is: who are you when you're alone? That is the wavefunction. That is the truth.

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The Uncertainty Principle

Heisenberg: you cannot know both the position and momentum of an electron simultaneously. The more precisely you know where it is, the less you know about where it's going. This is not a measurement problem, it is a feature of reality. Certainty in one dimension creates uncertainty in another. The electron is teaching you: you cannot be perfectly located AND perfectly moving at the same time. Choose. Routines give you location. Uncertainty gives you momentum.

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Quantum Tunneling

An electron facing an energy barrier it classically cannot cross, crosses it anyway. Not by going over or around. By being a wave, by being spread out enough that some probability exists on the other side of the wall. It tunnels. The sun runs on this. Nuclear fusion in stars requires quantum tunneling because the protons don't have enough classical energy to overcome the Coulomb barrier. The sun shines because particles go where they shouldn't be able to go. Take notes.

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Quantum Entanglement

Two electrons, once entangled, remain correlated regardless of distance. Measure the spin of one, the other, across the galaxy, is instantly determined. Einstein called it "spooky action at a distance" and didn't believe it. Bell's theorem proved it. It is real. Particles are not isolated units. Once related, they remain related. The separation is in space, not in the reality of their connection. You are also this. The people you have loved are entangled with you. Distance is not severance.

Feel stuck in the same orbit? The electron doesn't stay in one shell forever. Give it energy, any energy, and it jumps. A new book. A different route to work. An instrument you've never touched. The electron doesn't ask permission to change energy levels. Neither do you.

Routine · Trapped Orbit

Same time, same path, same reaction. Predictable. Stable. Safe. The electron at ground state, lowest energy, no photon emitted, nothing to see. The brain automates it. You stop choosing. You stop noticing. You arrive at the destination without having traveled.

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Integrated · Excited State

Not a broken routine, an enriched one. The electron absorbs a photon, jumps to a higher orbital, and when it returns, emits light. The shift creates emission. A habit shifted doesn't vanish, it becomes conscious, which means it becomes yours. You chose it. Now it's real.

Being predictable is the lowest energy state. It requires no photons. It emits none. What is life without uncertainty? Without stopping to smell the flowers? Without being captivated by music mid-sentence? Without looking up? The flowers didn't evolve for efficiency. They evolved for bees, for attraction. The universe is not optimizing for predictability. It is optimizing for complexity, novelty, and the brief, improbable flame of consciousness noticing itself.

Nietzsche · On Shifting Orbits

"The higher human being departs from their fixed orbit by their own will. Not because the orbit failed, but because they grew beyond it. Every habit you have is a choice you made once and forgot you were making. Reclaim the choice. Not by destroying the habit, by making it conscious again. By adding the photon. By jumping the shell. This is what I meant by the will to power, not domination of others, but self-mastery sufficient to say: I am not finished becoming."

Beyond Good and Evil · 1886 / Imagined continuation · Musica Universalis

Camus · On Uncertainty and the Present

"The electron doesn't know where it is until observed. You are the observer of your own life, and most people almost never observe it. They are too busy being in it. But stopping to smell the flowers IS observing. Being captivated by music IS the observation that collapses the wave into a moment. The present, full, sensory, alive, is the only place you can actually live. Not in the routine, which is the past made automatic. Not in the plan, which is the future made imaginary. Here. The smell of rain on hot stone. The particular way this chord resolves. This is not a small thing. This is the whole thing."

The Myth of Sisyphus · 1942 / Imagined continuation

Locke · On What Writes You Now

"The slate is never finished. You arrive blank and are written by experience, but you are also being written this moment, and this one, and the next. The new experience you have today is rewriting chapters you thought were fixed. Every new input, a book, a conversation, a landscape, a piece of music that ambushes you in a supermarket, is new inscription. You are not your past writing. You are the process of being written. Which means: choose your experiences as carefully as you choose your words."

An Essay Concerning Human Understanding · Extended · Musica Universalis

Section VII · Synthesis

Let's Build the World with Art

Here is the thread that runs through everything on this page:

Democritus said you are atoms. Then atoms became electrons. Then electrons became waves of probability. Then waves of probability became, what? Events. Relations. Observations. The universe turns out not to be made of things. It is made of events and relations between events. And what are you, then? You are a particularly complex event, a self-aware pattern of relations, made briefly possible by a star that happened to form 4.6 billion years ago and will run out of fuel in 5 billion more.

Locke said you are blank, written by experience. Nietzsche said you are a battlefield, written by will. Sartre said you are freedom, writing yourself. Camus said you are finite, and the correct response is full-throated love of the finite. Beauvoir said freedom requires material conditions and you can't be honest about the question without looking at who has them. Singer said you are an animal, and being a good one means acknowledging the suffering of other animals.

They are all pointing at the same thing from different directions. You are more than you have been living as. The particle in the ground state. The routine that has become invisible. The language that has become automatic. The music you used to make and stopped making because you got busy.

"What is a human being? An electron that learned to love uncertainty. A particle that became a wave that became a person that makes music."

Musica Universalis · Of Monsters and Men

The Electron Imperative

The photon has zero rest mass because it is never at rest. The moment you stop, you stop being light. Being captivated by music. Stopping for the flower. Letting the sunset actually land. Picking up the instrument. Beginning the sentence you don't know how to finish. These are not interruptions of the life you're supposed to be living. They are the life. The rest is the empty space between the nucleus and the orbital, which, as Rutherford found, is most of the atom. Don't live in the void. Jump the shell. Emit the photon. Be seen.

Philosophical sources: Democritus Fragments (preserved in Diogenes Laërtius) · Locke, An Essay Concerning Human Understanding (1689) · Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra (1883), Beyond Good and Evil (1886) · Sartre, Being and Nothingness (1943) · Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus (1942) · de Beauvoir, The Second Sex (1949) · Singer, Animal Liberation (1975), Practical Ethics (1979) · Physics sources: Standard Model particle data (PDG) · Heisenberg, Uncertainty Principle (1927) · Bell, On the Einstein-Podolsky-Rosen Paradox (1964) · Aspect et al., Bell inequality experiments (1982) · Weinberg, The Quantum Theory of Fields · Light sources: Weller et al., Nitric Oxide from skin (University of Edinburgh) · Holick, Vitamin D and Health (NEJM) · Walker, Why We Sleep (2017) · Art/music neuroscience: Zatorre & Salimpoor, Nature Neuroscience (2013) · Limb & Braun, PLoS ONE (2008) · Dissanayake, Homo Aestheticus (1992)